Sometimes it takes many calls to convince us of a calling. The Hebrew judge and prophet, Samuel, needed three callings and the help of old, wise Eli to work through his confusion. Jonah needed God’s voice, a storm at sea and the belly of the whale to overcome his resistance.
The Rev. Samuel Schaal, a Unitarian Universalist minister from Texas, approached me at a Life Planning workshop in the fall of 2011 where I had shared the vision of the Golden Room. He asked me if I would write it down for him, because he felt it could be useful for others. It was just one more in a long series of calls spanning two decades, but it was the one that finally convinced me that I had a calling to bring this project to life.
Morning glory blue–that is what my eye looks for on summer mornings, a flower or many flowers opening on the vines. I wake up thirsting for more. It diminishes the day, it dims me, when I cannot drink in that pleasure I am craving.
The wide open sky of the flower draws me in, but it is the light at the heart’s core that is the destination it has in mind for me. It hopes I am not one of those who flies by or settles for petals. It prays I will be a pollinator and dive into that light and help it seed the world with more of the beauty we are all born to share.
I confess that I often see only the blue, only the lovely surface. I rush on drunk from one sip, calling it more than enough. It takes time to move to the core. Look deeply into this photograph and see what you feel.
It feels to me as if there is a sun down there in the center of all that sky, a powerful force and source of life.
It feels as if there is something waiting in that tunnel that wants to come forth, something the world needs. I feel its urgency to make fertile the seed. I want to help.
I feel that this tunnel leads to the light that dwells at the heart of all things, and if I dive into it here, I could swim anywhere in the universe. If I help this light, I help all light. If I know deeply its light, I know better your light.
I want to find that glow inside myself, inside every moment. Where is it in me? Where is it in this moment?
I want to help you find yours, too. There are proven ways to do it, and we live in an extremely exciting time because ancient ways are being revived and new ones are evolving, blossoming from the intertwining strands of the old. Here are two ways we can find our heart’s core light: Continue reading →
You may not be able to see it. You may not be able to feel it. You may see and feel in yourself only the old, splintery, knotty, worn out barn board that is all that remains of the fertile young farm you once were.
But make an opening, and if you cannot make one, wait patiently for a knot to loosen and drop and leave a hole, and see what happens.
Trust that the Golden Room is down there, waiting, eager to send forth what you were born to share and shine. It will always return if we give it room. Watch and wait and pray, and miracles can happen, a green spark can rise in people who have been lost in the darkness, people who feel useless, people who are dying and almost dead. It is why we are here every minute that we are here. It is never too late, because the Golden Room is who we are and always will be.
What do you need to do to let a new green shoot rise through you?